Desperate

I'm so desperate, I can't believe I've sinned against you

Create in me a clean heart (I'm so sorry)

Your mercy is what I need

Woke up this morning too depressed and shamed to leave my bed

Can't stand to see my own reflection so I hang my head

Feel like a disappointment like the scum of the earth

I'm so hurt I know you see I can't cover my dirt

My souls dying hearts weak and I can't even cry

I'm sposed to run to you but WHY I'm such an evil guy

The sun's shining but for me it's the darkest of days

Try to pretend it never happened but the guilt remains

I leave the house it feels like everybody knows I did it

Feels like they reading my mind and know the sin I committed

Through your blood I'm aquitted but my heart doesnt get it

Oh God I'm desperate for Help cause I'm grieving your Spirit

I couldn't sing in the sunday service, Lord I felt fake

And when they started communion I just made an escape

I'm in need of your grace

Feels like you hid your face

Lead me back to cross and show me my sins erased

I'm waste deep in my pity

Is Satan tryna trick me and tell me you won't forgive me

Cause it's startin to get me

Jesus help me quickly I hate wrong I've done

I know we all fall but I feel like the only one

Feels like I should be shunned

Should I punish myself

I know it's dumb cause by your death all my sin has been dealt

But my sin is been felt

I didn't want to do it

But what I want to do I don't

I swear I'm gonna to lose it

Try to open my bible I need to read your pages

I need you Lord but my guilt has got me feeling so faithless

Help me see where your face is

Take me back to the basics

Help me find my joy in you and not people and places

My sin is ever before me I turned my back on you

Oh father break and restore me to bring me back to you

Have mercy on me God according to your steady love

Wipe away my transgression and wash me in your blood

Create in me a clean heart renew a right spirit

Don't take your Spirit away your Presence keep me near it

I'm waiting patience on you Lord I know you hear my cry

Restore your Joy in me

For you alone I live and die

It's you I Glorify cause you don't want my sacrifice

You want me broken and contrite trusting in the Christ

I confess to you my sin and you show me mercy

I turn away from it demonstrating that you are worthy

Over lust, over pride, over all sin

Is my affection for Jesus is who died for all them

I was lost now I'm found I was toss to the ground

My sin weighed on me heavy but I am no longer bound

As sure as Christ wears the crown

I know that grace will abound

And even when I feel lost I know in You I am found