Fear

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death

I will fear no evil, for you are wit me

Your rod and your staff, they comfort me

I honestly grow insecure as I get older

Cuz' even when you hot there comes a day when you get colder

Comes a day when you slower, time is taking its toll

45 on the back of the jersey upon your soul

I'm scared of letting go, I don't know what the future holds

My nightmares are having nightmares

I'm quite scared of what's right and fair

How I fear an eternity

Will I hear well done when he's turning me?

Will I hear you care too much about

All this stuff that really don't matter?

You chase the wind and you don't want it

Got to the top of a 2 foot ladder

What's after I can capture all this mess my heart was after?

Will I end up empty-handed when I stand before my master?

Did I master the mathematics of a passive disaster?

Add in my selfish ambition

All the while, subtracting what matters

I don't know

At late nights, I can't sleep

Will I fall? Will I peep?

Through the curtains, all I see, fingers pointed at me

And they watching, and they watching

And I'm wondering what they thinking，thinking bout‘

At late nights, I can't sleep

Counting cash, counting sheep

Through the curtains, all I see fingers pointed right at me

And I'm watching, and I'm watching

And I'm wondering what they thinking， thinking bout'it all

In high school, we tried to act all tough

I remember a couple times, I couldn't back that up

Like when I ran from them vatos, scuffing up my zapatos

Scared of losing my high, I was so embarrased inside

If I could go back in time, I would stand and say something like

I ain't never scared, never scared, never scared

I'm lying, I'm scared of these thoughts in my head

I'm scared of possibly pushing people right over the ledge

When I say I pledge allegiance to the struggle

Then, I turn around and buckle

Under stress and under pressure

Bible on my dresser that can teach my pain a lesson

But I rather not address it

Address that's in depression

I'm scared if I confess it

That you gon' look at me like I'm something less

And I'm such a mess

At late nights, I can't sleep

Will I fall? Will I peep?

Through the curtains, all I see, fingers pointed at me

And they watching, and they watching

And I'm wondering what they thinking，thinking bout‘

At late nights, I can't sleep

Counting cash, counting sheep

Through the curtains, all I see fingers pointed right at me

And I'm watching, and I'm watching

And I'm wondering what they thinking， thinking bout'it all

And it just so happen, I'm wrestling with my status

I'm trying to see me like He do, not focusing on this madness

They count on me, count me out on a count of they fear and doubts

Keep account of my wrongs, trying to keep me inside they house

Some just keep me around, I wonder what that's about

Yeah! They wanna be politically correct, I suppose

But，I'm comfortable in my skin

While they just pretending they clothes

I'm scared of falling and failing

In front of all of my foes

And I feel some friends are unfaithful

So, I keep my small circle closed

I don't want no handouts or favors, no functional saviors

I'ma tell that truth till it kill me

I'm chilling with my Creator

Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, Jesus to all of my haters

To the ones that think I forgot him

And the ones who won't let me say

I ain't scared no mo'

At late nights, I can't sleep

Will I fall? Will I peep?

Through the curtains, all I see, fingers pointed at me

And they watching, and they watching

And I'm wondering what they thinking，thinking bout‘

At late nights, I can't sleep

Counting cash, counting sheep

Through the curtains, all I see fingers pointed right at me

And I'm watching, and I'm watching

And I'm wondering what they thinking， thinking bout'it all

Everybody always

They got something to say rather you like it or not

Everybody always

They gon' have something to say

Baby, don't take it to heart