I Have To Die, Goodbye

Angels come to earn their wings

Shield me from the pain I hold so tight

They seem so invisible

The blind can't read without their light

And then the darkness came and cluttered up my kindness game

While everyone said "keep a smile,

and sweep your hurt beneath the tile, and bow to me"

Clipped of wings and forced to fly

All my trust naive weighs me down

And like a child deflected sight

Deaf ears can't hear the killing sounds

Robbed of all my sanity

The norm was mediocrity

And Wise men fell from pedestals

The weak made goblets from their skulls

And came for me

Now, before I go

I'll let you know a secret

Then maybe you'll understand

Staring deep into your soul

I thought could make the torture go

But it seems love never can

Free, roll out to the sea

Martyr out of me

As I sail crucified

Bleed, taking of my seed

Kiss me, turn and leave

And then I have to die, goodbye

Lost my faith so long ago

The worthy come, the worthy go to sleep

Resting far beyond the lies they keep

On my tongue a thousand tears

A burning hate that reappears in me

So now you turn to me, my friend

Try to make me heed my own words

It doesn't work that way

It comes my time, reach ladders I can't climb

I'll take another way

Free, roll out to the sea

Martyr out of me

As I sail crucified

Bleed, taking of my seed

Kiss me, turn and leave

And then I have to die, goodbye

Angels come to earn their wings

Where were they when I thought I could fly?

They remain invisible, and

Wonder why we lose our will to fight

Still now the darkness comes

We close the shades, avoid, be numb

But through the cracks beneath the door

It finds a way, becomes it's whore

So lay with me

Away with me

Free, roll out to the sea

Martyr out of me

As I sail crucified

Bleed, taking of my seed

Kiss me, turn and leave

And then I have to die, goodbye