Dear God

Dear God, I think it's time we had a conversation

These lonely nights is getting to me so my mind is racing

I think about this life I live and all the shit I'm facing

More secrets in my mind then a free mason

I get lonely at times, and then I write these rhymes

I'm only human, I want to hit the club and fuck a dime

But I know that's not the answer to my problems

Lord help me solve them

Disintegrate and dissolve them

Laying in bed

With a girl I'm pretty sure is my next

Contemplating the sex

While I think about my ex

Am I wrong, Dear God, am I wrong

Dear God tell me am I wrong

For living the life of a king surrounded by these pawns

Fans telling me I'm the greatest but I never hear them

Cause I ain't hit the pinnacle yeah I'm still persevering

Demons whispering in my ear but no I never fear them

People thinking they on his level they ain't even near him

I just want to spread positivity

Through lyrical ability

They call it selling out but I just call it versatility

Yeah, it's my life

My wrongs, and My rights

My battle, My songs, and My fights

Now everybody want to come around

Tell me where was you last year when a brother was down

Not a single one of you mother fuckers believed in the brand

Extended a hand

And now you want to be my man

I think not

You quick to shape shift like ink blots

The real dealer we cut classic no fitters

What about the time

I was nine

And my mama almost murdered me

Don't think I forgot that shit it still burdens me

Her bare hands tight around my throat I can't breath I screamed I can't breath mama

Don't you want me mama

Don't you love me mama

What the fuck

Where was you here God tell me now

Hows a brother supposed to stay sane tell me how

Why you let me live but let another die

Why you dry my tears but let another cry

Gotta know

Set to detonate I gotta blow

That shit for show

I used to wonder why in the hell you would make me suffer

But now in the end I understand that it made me tougher

I get up when I'm down

Had enough almost drowned

When shit rough

I get tough

And when I'm beaten to the ground I get up