Why Do I Lie?

i would love to be better

i would love to be free

i would love to be perfect

when you look at me

but instead i'm still crying

yes instead i'm still lying

sad to say i'm still trying

not to be me

when i see all the weakness

that i turned into sickness

i still think i can slide

just fine on the ice

it's not easy to be honest

sometimes i'm just astonished

how hard it can be to be true

why do i lie?

is it just to get by

if i give up my lines

will i die?

if fortunes are favored

then i am in labor

and i'm trying so hard

to leave lying behind

i don't want to be hazy

i don't think that i'm crazy

but i've had some moments

where i am not sure

and if you can forgive me

for just being human

then i will try harder

to keep my words pure

i could be on the border

it could be a disorder

honestly i think

that i can come clean

and all of my stories might even be boring

if i can tell you

what they all mean