The Balance

As I watch the clock

My whole heart starts to drop

Times ticking away

It doesn't stop

On that mission again

Leaving behind what matters the most

The tears cloud my vision

I pretend to be fine but that's a joke

Inside I'm torn to shreds

Before I fly high I numb the head

It's part nerves part excitement part dread

Wish I could tell you

Something different instead

It's bittersweet

I'm off balance

My choice hangs in the balance

I love the feeling

The challenge

But I love them more

Time to punch the clock

The cycle never stops

I'm feeling pressure to please

To appease all sides and me

Don't get me wrong

Don't misunderstand

I love my work

It's my passion

I take nothing for granted

Not a thing

Nothing

It's bittersweet

I'm off balance

My choice hangs in the balance

I love the feeling

The challenge

But I love them more

As the long hand marks the minutes

On the clock

That goes tic then toc

My soul is aching

My heart is breaking

It's bittersweet

I'm off balance

My choice hangs in the balance

I love the feeling

The challenge

But I love them more

But I need them more

I need it all

To fulfill the call

I need balance