Cold Crush

Kids ain't ready for the style I got

My life's a fucking horror movie with the violent plot

And I can feel my thoughts cracking and bending

No turning back and there's no happy ending

I'm climbing walls with anxiety

Walking zombie, I'm not going quietly

Ay, I'm the northwest best

In the grey and black North Face Gore-Tex vest

Who want slide down my vortex next?

Smoke tobacco, shining with stars to a black hole

That's what I get for being such an asshole

Want to put a rope around my neck like a lasso

Rain's coming, clouds rolling over head

Words pouring from my head

Be a warrior 'til I'm dead

But I don't want to meet Joe Black, I'm not ready yet

Long black box with roses and poinsettias

Yo, yeah

Hit the stage with radicalised battle cries

Unintentional role model with bad advice

Between a rock and a hard place

My favourite movies were Goodfellas and Scarface

And God Father, guess I took that shit too literal

Wasted twenty years of my life rolling with criminals

Snort coke, get a dirty and perverted mind

It's not a good look doing coke at thirty-nine

Put that lame shit to bed, change the chapter

'Cause when my head's clear you'll still feel my rapture

Plus there's so much out still to capture

I'm recharged, ready to go

Be an adapter

Through the storm to the path of illumination

Even if you feel like you're half of a wrong creation

My whole life been babbling gloomy statements

But now feel like my brain's unravelling doom and hatred

(Fuck!)

Blow my brains out and drop to the pavement

What if there's more then I'm locked up with Satan

Burning for eternity does not sound appealing

So now I'm kneeling looking up past the ceiling

Ask God's forgiveness and please start me healing

'Cause if you mean it, I swear you could feel it

Tears drop leaving stains on this paper, I'm writing on

You can't give up, you just keep fighting on

Mad the destroyer or Madchild the healer?

Don't be afraid, let your love out, reveal it

Feeling chained to my list of regrets

So many barely move breaking into a sweat

And everything's dark and grey, I see no colour

Break free from my past, need bolt cutters

Unless it's family or blood, don't trust others

I'm getting older but still cold crush brother