In The Abyss Of Desperation

I wish I could free myself

Of the arrogance I had when I was younger

But the knowledge does not make up for the pain

For all the pain that I suffer

Nothing really works anymore

This proud machine is falling apart in decay

And the disparaging eyes that stare at me

Makes me want to die today

I know I breed contempt

I felt the same in my first stages

It's just another lesson

That you learn through the ages

I only rejected you to keep away from sorrow

I pushed you away to kill the future pain

To see all your loved ones disappear one by one

Would make an old fool like me go insane

Weakened beyond what I thought was possible

Defying my sense of imagination

I'm crying out from the abyss of desperation

I know I breed contempt

I felt the same in my first stages

It's just another lesson

That you learn through the ages