Make It Up As I Go

I keep on running backwards, I keep on losing faith

I thought I had the answers, I thought I knew the way

My brother said be patient, my mother held my hand

I don't know what I'm chasing, I don't know who I am

Woke up this morning holding my head

Thinking last night is one of regret

Washing off the bad decisions, the blurry vision

The clues that I'm still a mess

Spitting out the taste I have in my mouth

Knowing what this all is really about

Knowing there's an explanation, an expiration

I gotta figure shit out

And they're asking me if I can see the darkness down below

And I know it's true, I say I do, and half the time I don't

Maybe I can't make what it may take to leave this thing behind

But I shut my eyes and cross each line and every time

I keep on running backwards, I keep on losing faith

I thought I had the answers, I thought I knew the way

My brother said be patient, my mother held my hand

I don't know what I'm chasing, I don't know who I am

Waking in the dead of night, I can't sleep

Sleeping in the light of day for like weeks

Reality was out of focus, I could be hopeless

Instead I gritted my teeth

I didn't have the patience left to explain

Didn't wanna wait while nobody came

I know the path ahead's uneven

But while I'm breathing

I have to make my own lane

And they're asking me if I can see the darkness down below

And I know it's true, I say I do, and half the time I don't

Maybe I can't make what it may take to leave this thing behind

But I shut my eyes and cross each line and every time

I keep on running backwards, I keep on losing faith

I thought I had the answers, I thought I knew the way

My brother said be patient, my mother held my hand

I don't know what I'm chasing, I don't know who I am

So I make it up as I go, ooh-oh, ooh-oh

I make it up as I go, ooh-oh, ooh-oh

So I make it up as I go, ooh-oh, oh-oh

I make it up as I go, as I go

Keep on running backwards, I keep on losing faith

I thought I had the answers, I thought I knew the way

My brother said be patient, my mother held my hand

I don't know what I'm chasing, I don't know who I am

So I make it up as I go, ooh-oh, ooh-oh

I make it up as I go, ooh-oh, ooh-oh

So I make it up as I go, ooh-oh, oh-oh

I make it up as I go, as I go