Watching As I Fall

Excuse me while I kiss the sky

Sing a song of sixpence, pocket full of lies

Thinking I'm okay, but they're saying otherwise

Tell me how I look but can't look me in the eyes

Watching as I say this and then I do that

Telling them the old words but in a new rap

Then I change my mind up and make them lose track

Shit I'm inconsistent I thought they knew that

Maybe I should be more grateful

That I had to watch it all come undone

Holding so tight to the edge is painful

But can't ignore it I know

They're watching as I fall, they're staring as I go

I gave until my soul hurt, and never told them so

They're watching as I fall, to somewhere down below

But maybe I'm just falling, to get somewhere they won't

Excuse me while I sympathize

Singing with the fat lady tell me what's the time

You know what it is not afraid to cross the line

Nothing is forever don't be mad at the design

Ask me if I can / I say I don't know

And honestly I buy that I can sound cold

Still upset from shit that's 15 years old

I don't know what it takes to make me let go

Maybe I should be more grateful

That I had to watch it all come undone

Holding so tight to the edge is painful

But I can't ignore it I know

They're watching as I fall, they're staring as I go

I gave until my soul hurt, and never told them so

They're watching as I fall, to somewhere down below

But maybe I'm just falling, to get somewhere they won't