Fading Light Of A Dying Sun

As the sun goes down and darkness arrives

My mind flees from fear of death

Suicide has taken so many lives

I am at the stage where I cannot decide

To take my life or to go on living

Is this a sin please tell me God

I mourn at the thought of my loved ones death

It seems that there is nothing left for me

Suicide remains an option inside

I do not know whether I should be dead

I only wish that God would answer my prayers

Grief, pain, torture and death

Are the only feelings I know

Living is now called pain to me

Love is lost in my memory

I am now forced to feel sorrow

Will I last to see tomorrow

I am waiting for a change in this abnormal life

Will it come and will I survive

If I commit suicide I cannot be sure

If I will end up in heaven or hell

As the darkness fades and I see the first rays of light

Another day of misery is all that is ahead of me