Not Today

Not today,

Just not today,

Please not today,

I don't really got time to stop and talk

But don't take it personal

I been up all night with my son

I'm tryn'a reach the doc before he close

I'm stressed out, upset, the lack of sleep got me emotional

And its that time of the month

just to really f****n piss me off

I'm feelin' self-conscious

Just need me a little space

So Mr. Media, ya betta' take ya camera out my face

Not today, I got things on my mind

Not today, Now ain't that the place or time

Not today, I'll do it all any other day

Just not today, please not today

I don't mind signing an autograph

But you the 99th person to ask

And all I really wanna do is break down and cry

Cause a close family friend just passed

I know you already booked the studio

But at the mo' my head can't cope

I'm aware that I made a commitment

But I never knew my heart would be broke

I'm dealing with some issues

Believe me I don't mean to be rude

Only human, forgive me, if you sense a little attitude

Now let me get one thing clear

I know its ya'll that keep my here

And I'm grateful like you could never know

More thankful than I could ever show

But if, you could sympathize from just a second

I reckon you could understand where I'm coming from

Sometimes when I'm steppin' out my house

I aint steppin' out as Dynamite

I'm stepping out as Mum

Tryna' spend some quality time with my son. Whew!

If you could understand

This weren't the way I planned, its gotten out of hand

Sometimes I feel I don't even know when I am

Since I picked up the mic, my private life don't exist

Love my job, but I never know I was signing up for this

Dealing with makeup's and breakups gotta smile and be strong

Clearing with heartache and heartbreak, but the show must go on