She Don't Live Here Anymore

She abandoned me

She don't live here anymore

Now the pain is gone

I'm moving on

I'm so glad to see

She don't live here anymore

And all I have is love

To keep me strong

The smell of coke and the, feel of rope

She reminded me of what could of been

She used to ease the rage by, taking a blade

And pushing til' the blood soaked her skin

And any means to, stop the dreams

Memories playing over in her mind

There was no escape, she was reliving rape

And lost and hurt and all kinds...

Growing as a young girl, in a home of much abuse

Growing as a young child, where pain replaced the truth

Growing as a young girl, where love was known as hurt

Growing as a young child, she was made to feel she had no worth

Cancer ate the hair from mama's head, 4 infants dead

Never could she see past the misery

All alone in the broken home

Grief overwhelming their history

And means to, stop the dreams

They hurt so loud

They couldn't hear her cries

No escape filled with so much hate

she screamed to god almost every night

Growing as a young girl, in a home of much abuse

Growing as a young child, where pain replaced the truth

Growing as a young girl, where love was known as hurt

Growing as a young child, she was made to feel she had no worth

Mama forgive us for lying

Just trying to make it through the struggle

Forgive us for dying

We never meant to cause trouble

And I know it was hard

When every time you'd give your heart

It gets battered and scared

Now you mad at the lord

Daddy show us the way

I know it gotta be another

Convinces for something

Replace the tricking and cussing

With some kissing and hugging

Erase the visions when you sasso

Are you hitting his mother

How the f**k could you love her

And its all that you taught us

I had to break a nigga, face a nigga

If you f**k with my daughter

Heaven and hell

I swim and balling an ocean to water

I wouldn't rest 'till I called him

But then, I looked in the mirror

And his face got clear enough

How could we love him when we causing him pain

Shorty remind me of my momma

Saying daddy you've changed

Don't want my daughters thinking

Crazy with range

Niggas was cool cause the way they was raised

So I'm turning the page

And I'm sorry for the pain my black queen

We had the truth rearranged my black queen

And you so precious girl

The lord will guide you

Once you recognize the diamond inside you

Shorty you can move on