Pulling the String

Running I'm always running from myself

No one to help me

No one knows

Not that anyone who knew would care

Dangling

Hanging from your tree

Am I an ornament of longing

A seed trapped inside the shell that is me

Nobody can save me

From this

From myself

Hurricane of head space

Spinning circle

Stacking up the walls that hide you from yourself

Crumbling pieces of me

An offering to you

Falling gifts from me to you

Left nothing for myself

You had my cake and ate it too

And left nothing for me

Fist

For breaking

These eyes

For seeing

Right through

Heart

For you to trample

Confidence lost

Nothing to lose

Nothing to gain

From this loss

This right of passage denied

Holding the headstone

Tied to no one

Loosen the knot

Pulling the string

Losing

Feels like I'm losing all my worth

No one to notice

No one would care

If they took the time to stop and stare

Nobody has the time for me

For myself

Blistering pieces of me

I'm giving them to you

These sweet whispers are from me to you

Want nothing for myself

You hold my world inside your hands

And leave nothing for me

Fist

For breaking

These eyes

For seeing

Right through

Heart

For you to trample

Confidence lost

Nothing to lose

Nothing to gain

From this loss

This right of passage denied

Holding the headstone

Tied to no one

Loosen the knot

Pulling the string

So sorry

For whatever it was I've done

So I'm deserting

Sincerely

Me

Got to just be

You've got to just know

I've got to leave

It's time for me to go

So here's the note

I've left the key

I hope that when you find this

I've left you with a happy ending...

Goodbye

Goodbye

Goodbye

Fist

For breaking

These eyes

For seeing

Right through

Heart

For you to trample

Confidence lost

Nothing to lose

Nothing to gain