Razorblade Salvation

I know that times were hard

I know that you've been feelin' down

If you only knew how I'm feelin' for you

If I could take your pain

I wish that I could wash it all away

If you only knew how I'm feelin'

Mommy I'm sorry if my first letter made you cry

To be honest with you I don't think that I wanna die

Sometimes I feel like that I'm cancerous in others lives

That’s probably why I drink at night and sleep till 4 or 5

It's kinda hard walking through life with my distorted eyes

When I was younger I was stupid and I thought I thrived

I thought a lot about everything I said in the letter

And questioned whether or not if I was dead you'd be better

You think my shorty would be happy if I never met her

It's too late now mommy I could never forget her

Could never forget how she told me to love

'Cause my father and my grandmother is always above

It's glory above you know that daddy taught me to thug

And everytime we was with nanny she'd bombard me with hugs, damn

I miss 'em mommy and it's hard to believe

That I'm grown and I don't understand it - why did they leave

Better to die and sleep then never wake and sleep

Then linger on and dare to live when your souls life is gone

You've been runnin' around for so long

You've been hurting yourself too much

You keep messin' around with darkness

You're the one who's losin’

You've been runnin' around for so long

You've been hurting yourself too much

You keep messin' around with darkness

You're the one who's losin’

Mommy I think I’m to try to stick around a while

I got a niece and my nephews they need me around a while

I think they need me 'cause they hittin’ that age

And they ain't tryin’ to speak to Lenny 'cause they spittin' they rage, yeah

And mommy speakin’ of Lenny I think my brother need me

And we Italian so you know my mother loved to feed me

And it's the little things you do for me that make it worth it

Like when I play a joint that we did and you say it's perfect

And when Jay got knocked you knew that I was hurt

You told me put all of my heart in a song and it worked

I promised him I'd be there when he got out the bing

You ain't raised me to be a liar ma' that’s not my thing

I told him that I'd hold him down the whole time that he gone

They kept him locked in a cage but that’s cool 'cause he’s strong

So Mommy keep that first letter I wrote you on the low

I think I wanna stay alive and see if I can grow

You've been runnin' around for so long

You've been hurting yourself too much

You keep messin' around with darkness

You're the one who's losing

You've been runnin' around for so long

You've been hurting yourself too much

You keep messin' around with darkness

You're the one who's losing

You have power and money, but you are mortal

You know you can not escape death

But immortality can be obtained

The legend is always the same

If others have succeeded conquering death

Why must we accept it

I know where immortals live

And how to obtain their secret

We too could become wisemen

The elements of chemistry are many

But finite

So are the techniques of enlightenment

I know that times were hard

I know that you've been feelin' down

If you only knew how I’m feelin' for you

If I could take your pain

I wish that I could wash it all away

If you only knew how I'm feelin'