Deeper Down

An unfortunate journey

Through a bleak sea of loneliness

I carved through the waves of grief

In a black vastness of self doubt

I have never felt so alone

So pitiful and wretched and low

I'm tried by a terrible wind

The misery and the pains blow

Fill my vast sails of ruin

Steer me toward a bleak end

A horizon of purples and reds

The still waters of my welcome end

The clouds of grey come overhead

A storm will hunt me down

And rip the guts out of my body

That I would surely drown

The unforgiving wind searches

And lashes me like a whip

The self-pity overwhelms me

My heart sinks like a ship

Thrashing out at torment and pain

The maddened sea engulfs me

I let myself be swallowed up

The magnificent weight upon me

Deeper I go, deeper down

Didn't think it could get any blacker

The cold bites, the pressure builds

I think I no longer matter

Can't tell if my eyes are open or closed

The grieving waters swallow

The pain I'm in through my life of sin

The Devil will doubtless follow

Loneliness is agony

For those of you who know

A war of grief and sadness rages

Through mind, body and soul

When lovers die and friendships fade

When kin all lie forgotten

The gates of agony spew forth

Your memories, stinking and rotten

So deep now i feel so numb

I'm ravaged by utter loss

The guilt, the grief, the astounding pain

My body, they all will wash

I hope I ne'er return to life

Oh, Christ just let me go

Let death devour my simple soul

Lest my misery grow

I quietly leave. A lonely sight

Relieved of all my guilt

To join a wall of deepest Hell

The Devil himself has built.