The Cheapest Thrill

I was a teenager, delusional

With such an awkward build

That's why the first time she sent me a look

I swore she was my world

A week later, got cheated on

A pay-by-hour hotel

I guess she thought that's what my future's worth

A twenty dollar bill

I damn the world, shooting fire from my eyes

But behind them I was burning

Now I'm the lie

I'm the cheapest thrill

I'm the cheapest thrill

And everyone can tell that I'm the cheapest thrill

And I can barely stand myself

Clearly I was crazy

The first to give advice

Played it up like I was noble

But I was feeding my own pride

The lengths I'd go for a fix

Tacky charm got me far

Must have hurt so many feelings

While stabbing my own heart

I damn the world, shooting fire from my eyes

But behind them I was burning

Now I'm the lie

I'm the cheapest thrill

I'm the cheapest thrill

And everyone can tell that I'm the cheapest thrill

And I can barely stand myself

Suddenly I can see through my own eyes again

But I don't like what I'm feeling

You can't help your thoughts

But you can change your actions

If I don't I'll be consumed

Now I'm the cheapest thrill

I'm the cheapest thrill

And everyone can tell that I'm the cheapest thrill

And I can barely stand myself

I know now I'm not going back

I know my own worth now

(And I can barely stand myself)

I know now I'm not going back

I know my own worth now

(And I can barely stand myself)

I know now I'm not going back

I know my own worth now

(I'm the cheapest thrill)

I'm the cheapest thrill