Comforting Lie

I started out on the wrong foot

Now I'm not myself

I am Jekyll, I am Hyde

Found this place to hide

Come seek me

Oh, so up and down

So back and forth

So insecure

Can't get this taste out of my mouth

Swallow it down

Pretend

Hold it, hold it all in

Let it build up

Build a bomb

Blow it, blow it away

Clear it all out

Just end it

I'm just a normal person

Without those problems

When did it change?

Admissions so embarrassing

I'm on the verge of tears again

Hold it, hold it all in

Let it build up

Build a bomb

And blow it, blow it away

Clear it all out

Just end it

Oh look I took the Band-Aid off

Did I take it off too soon?

Hysterical confession

My big courageous move

Don't gasp at the predictable

A comforting lie can't last

Preordained checklist of this awkward love

It's so sad

Hold it, hold it all in

Let it build up

Oh, build a bomb

Blow it, blow it away

Clear it all out

Just end it

Sort it, sort it out

Just give it back

No thank you

Toss it, toss it away

Eliminate

Just give up

I can't decide

This tug of war

I'm feeling weak