Constant Contrast

every morning my self destruction grows

days and days asleep

to change the script of this show

the constant contrast too deep

facing the loss from that day, 19 years ago

small workers inside and around

destroying and building again

on more solid ground

I'm leaving you now

departing from here

to avoid admitting that pain

is writing and singing your name

I lived a different world

a different life

not me

dreaming every day

every night

how happy I could be

I heard my ears blown away

the music louder than silence in me

I tried to balance accounts of my life

but a plain blank sheet is all that remained

it's the obsession for desperate hope

for something I couldn't cope

I still hit my head against the wall

'cause I'm so scared to lose your love

but I'm leaving you now

departing from here

to avoid admitting the pain

is writing and singing your name