Dragons (you Know I Love You)

There are certain times

When I wished I wasn't so alive,

And I would take it out on people

Like they were dead

I blow them away with words so red,

Chops their skulls from their shoulders,

And they run circles

Till they fall off the face of the earth

It only works if I know enough

About you to pierce your heart,

Your soul, and if you've pierced mine

It only works if you've touched me

Soft with patterns of trust

I disengage the bond

If my paranoia seeps to the surface like vomit

Why do you even bother?

It happens when I hate myself to the bone

Broken mirror I feel alone

Did you ever wonder if I smiled at home

Away from your prying eyes?

Did you ever wonder if I smiled at home

Away from my worldly disguises?

Deep thought crushes me

With bombs and ill-will

Feeds on interpretation until

I'm inhuman, a beast

I resent you for your cold streak

Backwards I walk, talk, and think

I lose myself in a cradle of a sadistic hate

I slowly shake

It rings in my blood, and I salivate

Like a chorus of cats in heat,

For the slightest contact,

With my sharp long looks and calls

I starve for attention

I run from myself towards a wall

There's no escaping me,

I jump and stall

Your hand still clutching my ankle,

I viciously let go with thoughts,

Yells, rivers, translations of my life from hell,

In the split second before

The concrete smashes my face

They cut you deeply

I smell your blood like a fiend,

And reach even deeper,

I masturbate mentally

With the strange power pain has blessed me with

I can't stop until you hit the floor

My arms I hold out,

I let you fall through them

Secretly smiling I bring you down

To my level of broken-ness

We're such dragons

Maybe if I loved myself more

I could stand to look myself in the eyes

And wipe away those sharp tears

I could blow you away,

For how you hurt me

You lock yourself in a path,

If you feel I don't translate

Into your language at the time

I needed you immensely

Stuck to your guns,

You watched from outside

I was melting

Now shuffled by the world

You reach out for sympathy?

With my eyes I remind you

Of scars only seen by God,

Who keeps account of each souls pain

By weighing the bags that have grown so big,

They almost block my vision

I want to fuck you over with each decision

I'm an animal when I feel unnoticed,

Unaccepted by those I build homes for in my heart

Wrecked I check myself into your mind,

And you do the same at the same time

We recklessly crash through memories

Spilling them in bursts,

Like long-held desire

We hesitate then reach for each other

Time instantly pauses

Stuck leaning forward,

Our position slowly spins three hundred and sixty degrees

I see the thoughts in the back of your mind,

The same way I see my crimes against your spirit

I smell you bloody

As guilt tints my vision towards reality,

I see the one of your tears inches from the floor

I lunge, grab it, it glistens stuck in the air

Then hide it from the world's stare

We're such dragons

(You know I love you)

We're such dragons