Keep It Even

There's a drawer in my house that I try

To keep closed but it's open. there's

A commitment that I made to be

Somewhere but it's broken. an oblique

Mantra in my head it lies there on

The floor like a bed that would

Collapse like a trap, if it was spoken

You gotta keep it even, even when

You're uptight

Even when you're happy

Even when you're reaching for some

Line I've had in mind, it's been re-

Pressed over time, so I'm breathing

Seduced by an excuse that could

Not be made but I'm speaking

There's a phone with a number that

I try not to call but it's ringing

For someone I've tried to keep to

Myself but I'm singing. it's logic

That's twisted and paraphrased and

Justified by a distance that separates

A bond, bound of persistence

You gotta keep it even, even when

You're uptight

Even when you're happy

Even when you're reaching for

That drawer in my house that I try

To keep closed but its open