Everyday

Every morning when I wake

Every morning when I wake

This is my life everyday this is my life everyday

Wake up in the morning notice something ain't right

'cause although the sun is shinning there is no light

I open up my curtains wipe the sleep from my eyes to tired to realize I've lost my sight

Blinded by my ignorance I prepare my self for the day,

Thinking this sinking feeling will go away

As I set off on my track the little voice in my head says turn back,

But when I want to turn back it's too late

Darkness surrounds me drowning me in sorrow,

'cause I know today will be no different from tomorrow

Hope is quickly fading soon I'll be too far gone for saving my soul will go and leave my body hollow

And still in the face of adversity I search for an inner strength

Try and stand firm with both fists clenched

But I can't find my heart it's like the fuckin' thing's deserted me

It used to be there this makes no sense

So I pray to a god that I'm not even sure if I believe in

To help me in my hour of need and keep me breathing

I pray to this god that created a place called Eden

A paradise to put Adam and eve in

But I don't think he hears me speaking

I'm starting to weaken

Now I'm reaching for what's fake

Poisoning my body to escape

Suddenly I'm overwhelmed with optimism my shoulders no longer feel the weight

Yeah life feels great but its fake.

Every morning when I wake

Every morning when I wake

This is my life everyday this is my life everyday

Wake up in the morning notice something ain't right

'cause although the sun is shinning there is no light

It's fake 'cause I know the smile on my face is only there 'cause I'm too intoxicated to care

That inside my soul I cant find no hope just a gaping whole where it used to be there

An amendable tear

That when I'm sober hurts more than I can bare

It just ain't fair

And soon I'll be back in normality

When the poison wears off and my whole bodies aching from the pain of reality

The pain of reality starts to grab at me

Love is a fallacy and I'm staring straight at death as it tries take another stab at me

I'm down on my knees

And I'm begging

Someone hear me please answer my questions

Why is my life just one big deep depression

Is this gods way of teaching me a lesson

Forgive me father for I have sinned

This is my confession

I do bad things and I don't know why I do them

I try to do good deeds but people see right through them

I can't get close to no one, 'cause they won't let me

How can I feel like a man if they don't respect me

Is that my heart?

I feel starting to sink

As the more I talk I'm starting to think

That maybe I feel this way because of the mistakes I've made

And it ain't got shit to do with no one else

I can only blame myself

It's me who's bad for my health

And only I can rectify what is wrong in my life if only I tried a little bit harder

It all comes down to a choice what would I rather

Stay how I am and watch the days get darker or forgive myself, get on with my life

And not look back after