You Mock Me

I asked you to be a symbol of strength that was once given yet you mocked me

Oh the mockery

And I placed so much confidence in the lessons I swear you taught me yet you mock me

Oh the mockery

And you taunt me about glory days

You say my best it yet behind me

You just bring up old stuff, our relationship is so unhealthy

So codependent,

You cut me... down

You blame me, I blame me

But I'm a man and I won't crack

And I won't show emotions, right

I do just like my daddy did and he is dead

I bury you.

I built me a mausoleum with a storage unit attached to it Just for you

And I have grown so very weary at failing to make you stay there

I hate it when you show up at my functions

You're so pompous

And without an ounce of shame

You almost ruined my marriage, You mocked me

Oh the humanity

And I tired to upgrade the way I speak

And raise my daughter,

But every time I open my mouth all I hear is my father

And the same foolish pride and pitfalls that he installed Leaked through my pores like

Poor me, so annoying

And I placed so much faith in you

But you let me down...

I see my own eyes in my eight year old when I correct her

Why won't you go away?

You smirk as you chase me

You a coy, hellin a troy that toys with emotions

And feeble

Bring boys, like me fall for it every time you mock me

And I'll probably do my best to convince you that I'm the victim

And you just don't believe me

You insist you are me

And I've ran, and I've ran

Yet your stride is identical

Every step I took your foot fit right in it

Why can't I shake you?

I just can't shake you.

You... are my past

Why won't you stay there

You that pain that guides us

Strings that tie us

That coincidence that proves to us God's existence

The joy I misplaced

Beautiful mistakes

My scarlet thread,

My crimson cord