I Need To Leave

I need to break the silence

But I can't speak

My heart is wrapped around my throat

Somebody start the fire

I need a drink

Then we can slide into our roles

I'm loveless

It must be so

How could I live with this on me

I need to start the violence

I need to hear

The screaming horror of my words

And there's no peace

For what I've done

It doesn't seem

As If I won

And honestly

I'm a broken dove

Who cannot bleed

Who's not enough

I'm an atrocious liar

I need to leave

Why can't we leave ourselves

It doesn't feel

Like anyone

It doesn't seem

As if won

And honestly

I'm a fallen dove

Who cannot feel

Who's not enough

How safe, how safe with anybody

Hands, only hands