Absolutely No Idea

Something is happening inside of me

Forming in the center and slowly migrating to a thinner layer of skin

Precipitating to my surroundings

There's absolutely nothing, all the direction has been obliterated

And in its place hope has been reinstated

And I find breathing is overrated, the reproduction of cells futile

Ending at a funeral I'll get married and go senile

Just wait a while you think no this will never pass

Hiding until it has and we are just above all man

Stand to deliver another message in my head

Your life is neither sacred nor worthless

In the grand scheme of things each of us has a got no purpose

After new mourning in mornings inhaling fresh air with nicotine

I stare unaware, I don't care what my reason here means

Everything is shady so I'm lazy and motivation erasing every ideal

Advance creative expectations, so what

My warm feelings are black from blue

I'm comfortable in my mind state ever degrading you

The drama of understanding is like being in your fathers' mind

When he sexually molests your sister one too many times

Or like being in your mothers' mind when shes popping barbiturates

And places your baby brother in a dumpster dead from being all autistic

Yeah I'm gifted, grateful, thankful for being in a sick cold waning world

While I'm strangling, beating the sick but fuck your girl

Your sadness is my happiness overwhelming my stress

Beating myself in the chest to please cardiac arrest, no presence

Mainlining with a used syringe on a heroin binge to find joy

The brightest thing I ever seen was a flame liquefying foil

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My agitated sadness is equal to witnessing my wife getting bottle fucked on my mothers' mattress

Life's an actress with diabolical tactics, I ran my head into the mirror for the fiftieth time

Vomiting gin and lime, scented formhyde, and shitting where I dine

Cutting my coke line with strychnine, flyer than 80 miles up to the stop sign

Body parts in a box, setting a brush fire in Charlotte's web

Drinking ahead and soon as I break out from a medium and what's done is said

Tired of choking with the filthiness of dead pussy in Hoboken transit to hell

Purchase a token, bodies floating

Rivers are red, famine, and natural catastrophes

A flask full of stomach disease at four degrees

Colder than sterilization

I stare while mama birthed a Satan

In the dark angel, ladies are waiting

Rejoicing, hating anomalies, brothers and sisters mating

Orgies from Oregon to the oracle at the Pentagon

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Fuck people and opinions it drains my energy, I care about me exclusively

No apologies or excess baggage could damage or slow my pursuit of max potential

Sick of advice clogging my noggin, finding selfishness essential

I snap like a pencil, past pissed

Pushing psychotic, fist through sheetrock

Why the boundaries, no more conscience attacks at me

To be nonsense, in fact, no more respect, fuck what you feel

Far as I know my thoughts and visions are the only things real

I'm not an extra in a movie 'bout everyone else

I got a thousand fuck yous to hand out, it's time to hit below the belt

And back stab with violent aggression and spit in fuckers faces

I have no aces, my tongue is tasteless, slit wrists with razors

Nah I'd rather be a burden, curtain on your ideals

I'm not taking it, I'm taking shits, fuck patience

Nobody gives a fuck about you, that's the revelation

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Worthy association

On what this demonstration

Has made into your occupation