Self Esteem On E

Rehab represents various concoctions of what is real

And what lies beyond the blood of the cerebellum and reality

We find that we are only existing in an illusion of time and space

For all the human mind can conjure is what we see before our eyes

But we know that one thing is true, THIS IS ALL REAL!

Self esteem on E, mean mugs, I see confusion bruising

My mentality is reality, actually fantasy

Can you tell that I hate me, make me know

Let me see me the way that I should be, please, please, please

Making incisions in my head to find my brain and see who's talking to me

Opening my chest and put my heart to rest, now who can do me

Better than insanity, granted be the only thing that's handed down to me

Synthetic visions keep me busy, is he okay? Breathin' that way

Sucking exhaust looking lost, seeming blue, and turning gray

A chemically dependent schizophrenic, retard patient living in withdrawals

Making spirit calls on prescription medication, no persuasion to serenity

Finding peace in mine melodically, she keep yourself through isolation

All else becomes a seizure searching for help and euphoria

Mentally calling Gloria, her syringe fucking me until I bleed

My progressive girlfriend, I burn and soak her up and shoot her through my veins

Keep her warm, rub her eyes, wipe her nose when it drains

Squeeze it tight, hold my breath

Slap her hard before we kiss, she's in my blood

I swear to God she leaves I'll cut my wrists

Self esteem on E, mean mugs, I see confusion bruising

My mentality is reality, actually fantasy

Can you tell that I hate me, make me know

Let me see me the way that I should be, please, please, please

Bloodstream half barbiturates, half amphetamines

Laugh and hide the cry by any means, pack paraphernalia

Daily delusions, I'm using the beast within

The light's on but no ones home in my dome

Trickery seed, my ticker it speeds uncontrollably, let it be the remedy

I'm dead already, remember me tenderly

Might as well dress for Hell, bells ring like churches

On sunny Sundays, I've gone the wrong way on a one way

And purchased that mental peril by the pound

Fuck the next square on the calendar

I'm out on a limb with sin

Shit's grim, hit dim sight so fuck it

Wired up and worthless

Tired of paranoia, nervous

Yesterday, tomorrow the trigger forever

I could of never have been better

I sit and shake and self-destruct

For what, tell mom I'm nuts

I chose bad luck, struck rock bottom

Cocked the shotty...

Self esteem on E, mean mugs, I see confusion bruising

My mentality is reality, actually fantasy

Can you tell that I hate me, make me know

Let me see me the way that I should be, please, please, please

Alone in my apartment, bad company

How many years it's been I been composing blues symphonies

Not to mention the entities that levitate around my neural programming

I wear the dark halo, solo like silos, the deep steelo what I feel though

While wind covering, my skin graphs is in a raft

I'm crying when I laugh, oh he have

Inherited the Earth, why don't the angels sing

Living what is thing, if I'm going to hell what should I bring

Ruthless like Ming dynasty, the woman's work is never done

I put a bullet in the flying nun age of reason

Rage is found, cohesion, conversations with Sandman

Talking to myself as always

Sick dialog see captain's log, you can't log on

The encryption codes to my madness lie somewhere in the blueprints of the museum of sadness

How irrational seems happiness, keep my misery personal

I wouldn't wanna complicate our superficial rituals naw...

Self esteem on E, mean mugs, I see confusion bruising

My mentality is reality actually fantasy

Can you tell that I hate me, make me know

Let me see me the way that I should be, please, please, please

Self esteem on E, Demon's I see confusing Bruising

My mentality is reality actually fantasy

Can you tell that I hate me, make me know

Let me see me the way that I should be, please, please, please

Please...