That Bad

A history of stillness, a blood-line of mental illness

I'd rather be a fraud and be happy than be known as the realest

Till the same dark day for my mother and my mother's mother

And Brooks; I can't get out of bed but I can write hooks

Wife's a maniac but she's the only one that's still around

Three in the afternoon on the sunny day layin' on the ground

I want to feel the way I felt when I was layin' with my dad

But I don't know if I want it that bad

I think about what I don't have

Five days a week sad, other two just mad

Six in the mornin' in the back of a cab

And I don't know if I want it that bad

It ain't non-stop to heaven there's a lay-over in hell

And I've been sittin' here for ten years talkin' and sayin' on the cell

You gotta be kiddin' me, I ain't signed up for this

And you wonder why Steaknife got scars on his wrist's

My heart got a black eye

Sometime I get scared that I might cry

Why do I pretend that I'm not shy

Sometime all I can do is just stay high

I think about what I don't have

Five days a week sad, other two just mad

Six in the mornin' in the back of a cab

And I don't know if I want it that bad

What I've lost and what I've seen

All in order to fulfill my dreams

Thought I had to be like my dad

But I don't know if I want it that bad

Water-fountains to the sidewalk, talk

Can't to myself but I can't stop

The up and down and up and down, smilin' to a frown

Town to town, same scenery, same sound

Don't my know skank when I wake so I sleep late

Everywhere I go I'm still there I can't shake

Me and my mind L.I. Ice Teas and

Three or four lines and now I'm fine

Maybe not

My head in my hands again

You know where I've been

My head in my hands again

My head in my hands again

You know where I've been

My head in my hands again

My head in my hands again

Do you know where I've been

I think about what I don't have

Five days a week sad, other two just mad

Six in the mornin' in the back of a cab

And I don't know if I want it that bad

Sun comin' up and I need some sleep

Eyes are red and I'm feeling weak

I can out do you and I can out do me

But all that I really want is peace

What I've lost and what I've seen

All in order to fulfill my dreams

Thought I had to be like my dad

But I don't know if I want it that bad

But I don't know if I want it that bad

My head in my hands again

My head in my hands again