Dear Joan

Dear Joan

I've almost forgotten the pain in the window

The blue dress in the doorway

Dear Joan

Help me remember the face I forget

And the traps that I've sprung

I guess I've grown tired

It's just what's expected of me

To tear your heart

From the inside to the outside

You know I was wired

I just couldn't help it

The hundred thousand times

I hurt you

Dear Joan I wanted to say

I'm sorry for the screaming last night

And the nights before

I've wanted more from this

Than anything I've ever known

Dear Joan

Dear Joan

Your face has brightness

That I've never seen

In the years that I've known you

Dear Joan

I'll pick up the pieces

But some traveled so far

They flew when I kicked them

Across the room

I know you believed when I said it was over

You stood by me patiently waiting and brooding

So deeply in love

With every face I've shown

Dear Joan I wanted to say

I'm sorry for the screaming last night

And the nights before

I've wanted more from this

Than anything I've ever known

Dear Joan

Once I forget

Twice I'm a fool

Three times I wrap my hands around your neck

While you're sleeping

Dear Joan

Don't walk out the doorway

Because if you did

I believe I could honestly kill you

Dear Joan I wanted to say

I'm sorry for the screaming last night

And the nights before

I've wanted more from this

Than anything I've ever known

Dear Joan