A Question

Pages are turning and words are losing ink.

Stories unfolding but I don't know what they mean.

Conclusions like a blade to the abdomen.

I'm watching life pour out and wondering how this is going to end.

I want to know.

I start to sink with lessons that I've learned.

The cover is worn and the corners are burned.

The spine is still strong, but who knows for how long.

A story exposed hoping something was earned.

I want to know where this is going.

I want to know if I've seen the worst.

I want to know what it all meant.

Feet don't fail me now,

I want to know my worth.

Pain is the plot, but the ending is unclear.

Pages that cut deep with weight I can't bear.

I'm writing "why?", but the words are just smeared.

I laugh till my eyes burn and flood these pages with tears.

The question is: What quest is this?