Embarrassed

Look at me for a second

No, seriously, look at me

Honestly, ask yourself this

Lookin at me, do you really think that there is any way possible for you to embarrass me?

Look at me! Do you really think I care what you think?

Do you really think I care what you say?

Look at me!

I'm embarrased by my past actions and even more ashamed

Of my present thoughts and future endeavors to clear my name

I'm embarrassed, I'm embarrassing, I'm an embarrassment, and it's all addin' up

I'm so preoccupied with self indulgence to see

What you provided me, I fully appreciate your offerings

And the awful things in are lessened

By lessons of self-acceptance I want blessings

And I regret keeping a distance

For future reference over bridges are preventable, I know the traps

Humanity as a whole will collapse, now close the gaps

We dwell on what we share, and what separates us

We're all different, but what makes us a unit?

Music is a universal language; so is anguish, pain, and torment

Balance of emotions, it shows a happiness upon us

No more pickin' sides, one without the other is impossible

(Uhh, forgot what I was supposed to say)

They call it bi-polar, unstable conditions, they got me lookin' over my shoulder

The book that I wrote ya', was meant to move the time slower

But it was spent cookin' my mind's motor, now I'm older

Yeah, it was in the cards that I'm to be forever haunted

Hip hop is slowly but surely becoming the Big Brother

I never wanted homie to hurt me, purely to mic

Still my head is astonished with Sonics and Stetics

Poetics and knowledge and polished rhetoric

Everything has its negative

Conscience consciously edit

Constantly get rid of the rigorous repetitive movements

Been better than you since...

It's easier to talk to you about it than to do it

Here I am, center of the spotlight

They all drunk and smilin', waiting for their cockfight

"Time to entertain" says the clock of life

So I became the freaky kid I'm starin' at, even though you know it's not right

Embarrassment, it's in between insecurity and arrogance

I'm a machine with a clarity I can barely grip

So if I seem red in the face, it's not 'cause I feel out of place

It's just that

And I can yell all day, all night, all day

And I still doubt that you would hear a word I say

And I can drive all night, all day, all night

But if you stay with me, you'll never get it right

I was never much for the self-driven skepticism

I was that cat that let distraction affect my vision

You were the kitten that was screaming to

Cover up the sound of landing or crashing, however it was going down,

But it's goin' down and it's goin' fast

And I have no doubts about whether or not it's gonna last

Fill the glass, tilt your head back

Let it trickle through the throat to where you hide your giggles and your laughs

I'll wait to find the correct departure time

Shine my eyes to keep the lies from climbin' up inside my mind

Some belong to you, and some belong to me,

But none of them can escape the contemplation necessary

You can't scare me, but you can keep it buried

Put your hands on the circle; try to steer me

And now that I sing all of my songs worth singing,

I'm guessing that it's just a test to see how strong I can bring it.