Flashback 96

It's just a flashback-

Now I can't even think back

When I reminisce on my own past I cringe

It gets under my skin like a syringe.

I binge on food for thought.

Avoiding memory lane on my way home

Get lost and have to look for a pay phone

It's so strange

I've got no change

I could have sworn I did when I left

My breath gets heavy with every theft

Y'all didn't round my childhood If I could have smiled I would

Try to keep them to a minimum

But one got cracked while I was killing 'em

Back to the present here and now in modern times

When Satan's got me signing dotted lines

I pick up the phone and call

People in my own hometown collect

And tell them things change, but they just won't accept

That's no surprise; it's so ironic me having to ask them for directions

But I just got dead air, cut lines and bad connections

People who would help

Change their number to unlisted

411 info left me unassisted

Wickedly twisted happenings

Is it coincidence?

I choose to think so.

Deep in thought my eyes blink slow

Pictures appear like slideshows

Cause my mind knows

Each and every minute detail

Total recall is leaving me pale

Sick to my stomach

Nauseous

Forces of nature bring my homing instinct

It stinks

It's so distinct.

Now let me think a minute.

Huh, this is the much traveled trail from my past

No one unbeaten path

And funny memories are now making me laugh

Just a flash back kid, it's just a flashback

I'm getting laughed at mental attack, mental attack

I should design forts

To pro-tect my mind

From these time warps

'Cause I'm off course

Begin to rethink my final thoughts

Philosophies

My personal creations face conflict

You're slipping

By following my footsteps

Cause I'm slick

Now I stand alone in this ghost town

My clothes make the most sound

Upside down smiles

Grin while folks frown

I feel my Sacred

Heart get filled with hatred

Ancient rituals of a teary eyed child

with nothing fake kid

the flash backs of my past acts

Are numerous

Inside the uterus

Other kinds haven't been so humorous

My laugh lines are faked for the last time

I'm past my prime

Climaxing again is a task of mine

I'm homeward bound; break out the map and atlas

I ask gas station attendants kid and they act pissed

I'm black listed

For not staying true to white lies

I fight guys in darkness

Heartless until the night dies.

And Then I shed some light on what's the matter

Reflections in the looking glass self scatter

When the hard stairs made it shatter

7 years back luck?

That ain't nothing new !

I'm searching for something true

But most my friends are fronting too.

What's up with you?

Only once you catch amnesia

Same old procedure

Valuable times lost at leisure

Plus I broke my compass

The needle always points backwards

There's no communications

Whack herbs

That cost me black words

Impossible

Facial expressions in sign language

Cause your mind your mind anguish

Misinterpretations are dangerous

No one knows who the stranger is

But still yet know my face is vaguely familiar,

Thinking back wouldn't kill you would it?

Or would it?

I can't catch no one's attention

Even Ignored by the lord

my mind sided dimensions

It's just a flashback kid, it's just a flashback

I'm getting laughed at mental attack; mental attack…