21 Months

I tried to act as if I cared

I tried to act as if I didn't want to get out

I wasn't careful what I asked for and I got it but I hung on for 21 months

49 days sitting, standing, not sleeping and going crazy in a corner

49 days, my balls turned to brass and I finally won out

I did 21 months. the 21 strangest months I've ever lived

I think about all the sick things that I said

And what I did, and what was done to me

And through it all I grew strong

Made my stand

Learned to live

I still live what I learned in 21 months