Wolves at the Door

It looks like I found heaven

It's on the tip of my tongue

And it reminded me of

All the times I was young

I'm catching rain in my open mouth

I used to smile 'til the day I found out

I have no idea who the hell I've become

It's not who I was, it's not who I love

I wanna drown in a sea filled with Novocaine

I wanna burn on a beach where the sand

Has thousands of needles poking at my skin

I lie in bed to the sound

Of the wolves at my door

They are speaking in tongues

Oh, they join on my floor

I never thought it would come to this

Eyes more yellow than my own piss

They're making rounds just to even the score

Just open the door, just open the door

I wanna drown in a sea filled with Novocaine

I wanna burn on a beach where the sand

Is littered with razorblades

Littered with razorblades, blades

Littered with razorblades

I can't hold on, the path is clear

I can't ignore what's been building for years

There's wolves at the door, I won't hide here in fear

Wolves at the door

I look at myself and the things that I've done

Stare away from the mirror and into the sun

I forgave myself for all of my mistakes

When will I learn? When will I, when will I burn?

I wanna drown in a sea filled with Novocaine

I wanna burn on a beach where the sand

Is littered with razorblades

I gave up on myself a long time to care

The black clouds that swallowed, spit me out whole

Sometimes I feel like I'm losing my soul

At least that means I still have a soul after all