What if

Water is getting into my arch diming out lights - until dark

thought my construction was tight thought what I built up might stand the flood

stand the flood phrases bearing a questionmark are trying to board my barque

again I start thinking what could have been what might have been

if I made up my mind in a different way what could have been

if I made you stay again I start thinking what do they mean

what do they mean all these words like "but" and "if" haunting my brain

what does it mean when all the doubts come up again

remembering me: what should have been what could have been

what if I've followed my vision what if I've sat on the fence

if I took a different decision if I felt a change of sense

too many things I can't change too many setups I can't rearrange

too many unknown lamentos I'm singing of key should I've thought of myself

or of the pain inside climbing up the ladder I was put out of the stride

should I've tried harder banish my doubts! What do they mean

these words like "faith" and "love" bereft of their meaning

when push comes to shove what might have been

if I made up my mind in a different way what might have been

if I made you stay what might have been