For Jack

Your perfection, without sense

Your mindless pride of emptiness

I don’t accuse you

How could I?

You gave me myself

You gave me life

I met an angel; I thought I’d go mad on the sight

Obviously human, so distant, painfully bright

I felt so sick of how small did I suddenly feel

When what I am confronted what I’d possibly be

Your perfection, without sense

Your mindless pride of emptiness

I don’t accuse you

How could I?

You gave me myself

You gave me life

I tried to learn, I tried to become more than I was

Soon I thought I understood how simple is the cause

I don’t regret what I’ve been through

I wished to be like you

My ignorance and poverty walking hand in hand

That’s what I thought restrains me from being better man

And everything I got to see

I’m more than you could be

I always kept your image on my mind

If I was lost in desperation you were my light

Light lasts as long as the torch keeps to burn

Everything’s complicated before you start to learn

Learn and experience all that you find

Cherish the moment when you realize you were blind

Blind enough to ignore the basic truth

Grace is not how you look; grace is simply what you do

I have become all I thought would bring you close to me

So I am here but somehow I don’t like what I see

I saw your wings and my desire was born, to fly

And I conquered skies just to learn your wings were a lie

There is no glory

There is no grace

Just a gun in my face

My heart has ached for something I could never have gained

Phantom of light which you have had not knowingly feigned

I don’t regret what I’ve been through

But why I wished to be like you?

Your perfection, without sense

Your mindless pride of emptiness

For accusations

I waste no breath

You gave me myself, you gave me death.