For Me

Every minute turns to hour

And I can hardly bear to breathe

All that is held inside my head

Behind my teeth

And in this chair I sat for years

Suddenly feeling out of space

And here I rule my little world

Loathing my own face

So what has changed?

Is it my fault? Why do I feel?

I was betrayed and I was sold

Hard to believe

I was so numb

Wreck my plans

Bleed them to death by my own hand

I am the unmaker of fruits of my own doing

I am the destroyer of perspective I had

Just hate me

For here I weep for second chance I could get

Just hate me

Just like your own mistakes you failed to accept

How could I fail to see the rot?

Crumbling the picture of my life

Why did I chose not to believe

What had to hurt me?

Neglected pain does not get weak

It slowly bleeds and gains its mass

And when you think it’s over you

It will tear your ass

I know what’s changed

It is my fault

I have unmade

What I, what us, could have become

When I shut my eyes

I can almost see

All that could have been

All I can do is to make amends while I can

When I shut my eyes

I can almost see

All that could have been

I am the unmaker of fruits of my own doing

I am the destroyer of perspective I had

Just hate me

For here I weep for second chance I could get

Just hate me

Just like your own mistakes you failed to accept

I will repent for I have sinned

Against my fate

Against my life

Remember

Nothing is granted if you do not keep it to be