Pins And Needles

I can't think straight

So don't wait up for me

I think I'll probably be late

I'll just count to three

1, 2, 3

Go

I couldn't care less

Past the point of distress

With a mind full of stress and a body to undress

Nothing else matters

Cause nothing's real in this mess

I digress

I want to caress your skin so I'll give it my blessing darling

I've learned a lot from my stay in hell

I've learned I don't have a story to tell

Because when things become too much

When love turns to touch

Self-destruction is my crutch

Give me pins and needles

I'm tearing myself apart

Give me pins and needles

I'm playing my part

And this pain is only the start

I promise I am romantic I swear

But I don't have to be fair

It's one sided this time

So I walk this line

Between safety and sanity

Who am I meant to be?

In love with the beauty

Of tearing myself apart

In love with the destruction

Of playing my part

And it's only the start

Still wishing I was dead

So I'll poison myself

Too much beauty I suppose

These stories in my head are all I can compose

But as my skin turns pale

My eyes just stay shut

Filled them with pins and needles all for what?

Filled them with pins and needles all for what?