Fear

{Fear} This was the moment I feared

Reoccurring dream, I was falling

Droppin' from something tall

And Jesus name that I'm calling

This is pretty deep how I'mma decorate the city street

Little bitty pieces there's really gonna be some chalky drawings

In this dream I had, when I land

I can taste the blood, I can smell the concrete

And I can feel my bones crush on a calm street

Dark and desolate, my heart I never get

Another beat I'm gonna be other head to split, my hell is credited

Where the red is in, I'm down and dead admit in light I'm dreadin' this

If we're created of God than predestination

Should not be looked at as odd, when we're blessed to wake in-

Side of a dream, like I've been here before

And we sum it up with some french expression like we didn't hear the lord

So I'm hopin' and prayin'

That I won't be opened and sprayin'

In real life and it's just a dream, and it's not a thing that can sway my view

But my fear is that I end up layin' and ready for decayin'

What I thought was a dream now it's Déjà vu

{Fear}

If I fall will the angels catch me?

Or in it all is it my destiny?

Is there a sound when the ground absorbs me?

Or a dream tellin' me my story

I called up my mother, but who answered my brother

He said "she real sick but I'm gonna put her on just tell her you love her"

My heart it just fluttered when mama picked up she would utter

"Who is this?" I said "Donnie", but she thought I was another

Didn't even know me, and she's not an oldie

It's the lupus or epilepsy

Maybe the psychosis only

"This your son I just called to say happy birthday"

Not really knowin' me hit me in the worst way

Then she said "Oh yeah, little Donnie, how you doin' in school?"

I said "I'm 42, mommy!"

I give my arm, leg, leg, arm, head if that means my momma get better

Toughest thing to swallow is when someone who raised you, they gonna forget ya

I'm feelin' sadness, I'm feelin' anger

Steady praying for a higher power to come down and change it

Rearrange her cause my fear is that the sickness in her mind

In due time it'll make her son a stranger

A stranger to the one who raised us

Nameless to the one who named us

Back to the place where it all began

I'm seeing heaven but I fear it's the end