Innocence

I wanna disappear

I just sleep all day

The spots on my hands

My skin just like sand

The air so cold, I shutter and I can't sing

Carpet on my feet, sweat stains on the sheets

Cough, syrup and drugs, bandages and gods

Razors dull, water cold against my skin

Radio loud, ecstatic, buzzing around like a tin

And all these empty plans, ink stains on my hands

And everyone says the best words for the gray

Of these weary morning tones

I probably saved mine too

If heaven's just a long road home

Tell me it's true, I'll come too

I'll come too, I'll come too...

I lost my innocence today

I could feel her in my bones

My bones, my bones, my bones

My blood, my blood, my blood, my blood

And I woke up, tired, scared and sad

Soaked, drained, I felt so bad

Today, today, today

What you still, you still, you still, you still

Won't you say, you say, you say, you say

What you feel, you feel, you feel, you feel

Which is nothing but hollow feelings, yeah

I can, done, I just don't care

And forget happiness, I'm fine

I'll forget everything in time

I swear I didn't know,

You know me, how I can't let go

And we're not guts, we're just hacks

All that life got lose the cracks

The scars, the scene that breaks

The ugly teens, the worst mistakes

And everywhere I see her face

Such a beautiful child, such an awful waste

And there's no innocence like hers

Just emptiness and nerves

And this light from the window of my car

She'll never see it, oh my God

I was so surprised, it blew up in my face

Lord, I lost my nerve, oh my God

Oh my God, oh my... God

And I tear, I tear, so hard

And I tear, I tear, so hard

And I beg and scream, "I was wrong"

It's over, she's gone