I Am Free

Lying bare across the floor,

can't take this silence anymore

and it feels like I've lost control.

How many times I've said I'd quit?

Each morning looking in the mirror as my reflection makes me sick.

I can't recall just what I did.

I'm sure as hell it wasn't pretty and I laid my words on thick.

Right in your spine, my rigid knife.

All this contempt for something smirky that you said the other night.

Yes, I'm diseased and I'm to blame.

Give me a shot, I swear to god I'll become livid at the sound of your name.

Oh, God please tie this rope tight.

A noose that fits just right.

Hold my head upright, take this knife across my throat and make amends for all my lies.

Lying bare across the floor,

can't take this silence anymore

and it feels like I've lost control.

This is the last time that I'll walk ashamed of my choices,

this emptiness,

feeding my future to flames.

This is the day I will finally be free of these demons,

addictions that keep me in chains.

I am free.

Oh, God please tie this rope tight.

A noose that fits just right.

Hold my head upright, take this knife across my throat and make amends for all my lies.

Lying bare across the floor,

can't take this silence anymore

and it feels like I've lost control.

This is the last time that I'll walk ashamed of my choices,

this emptiness,

feeding my future to flames.

This is the day I will finally be free of these demons,

addictions that keep me in chains.

I am free.