Honeysuckle

I'm lying here wondering am I dying inside

Am I diseased

I'm feeling pretty weak

My lungs are full of fluid

Will they continue to fill

Is this nearly the end

I used to be so pissed off

Then I forgot

Then I erased you

Then I just fucking erased you

Not for nothing

I was born so happy

But now it just takes

So much to keep me alive

I thought i'd be better without you

The past is always poison to me

Tried to forget

Tried to erase you

From the rain that never falls

From the wind that blows away from me

From the waves on other shores

From the taste of air surrounding me

I'm stuck at the corner of how long

So hard to be awake

Like hell to fall asleep

Tried to forget

Let me erase

A time and place

I can't forget your face

I can't erase

Claw away at the wound inside

Rip into my flesh to find a light

It's suffocating in here

And it's only me

Come a little bit closer please