The First Eviction Notice

A temple corroded, eviction pending

Embrace me, cold night, gray sky, streetlight

Miracle dissension, attention fading

Breathless, I'm a mess, kissless, I'm in distress

I'm barely breathing

This crowning anguish, locked up nervous reflex

I've got to build up from the inside

A relapse, reflection, distorted repression

Smiling spitefully, longing for you to sew up my seams

I'm barely breathing

I've abandoned old identities

Skin I couldn't fit into, songs I couldn't write

My voice will fade into this starless night

I cannot get much blinder

I cannot kick myself much harder

Have I accepted this to torture myself?

You can't see me, have I invented you?

I'm barely breathing

You're so easy to believe in

And it's so depressing

That I'm always second guessing myself