Premeditated

Dear old friend

I'm writing this to plant an image in your head

For the girl that you fucked and left for dead

After she told me not a word was said

But something changed inside me

And if she wasn't your first

I'm making sure she's your last

It takes such a small human being

To lose all control and to lust like a fiend

So keep on praying that her fear keeps you protected

I'll rest my mind

And let you live on my given time

I've made this my life

It left me sleepless at night

I watched her world fall apart in your hands (in your hands)

So tell me

Was it everything you hoped and dreamed?

Her legs pinned down

And face shoved deep into your seat

You feel blood, you don't stop, you don't stop, just repeat

It only makes you harder

And this wait has only made me stronger

You have no idea how long I've planned this out in my head

He just shut his bedroom door for the last time

I'm keeping still, breathing slow, with my hands tight

I feel the demons inside me

They feel what I feel

I am connected through a mindset

(I fuel the demons inside me

I feel what they feel

And we are all connected)

He lays in his bed so hopeless

I watch the life leave his eyes

Slaughtered the man I despised

Wrapped up his body in his bed sheets

My hearts racing faster than this car

Did I stab him enough?

At least I made it this far

I only wished you could see the look on your mother's face

You've truly broken her heart

I rest my mind

So she can finally sleep at night

I've made this my life

It left me sleepless at night

I watched her world fall apart in your hands (in your hands)