Ashamed Of Myself

There isn't a way that you can kiss me

That I haven't already imagined

There isn't a way that you can touch me

That you haven't just by looking in my eyes

But it stops right there and it goes no further

All I have is the loneliness of desire

I want to ask you out but I'm just too shy

So I sit alone and think of what I'd do

I don't want to be bad but I can't help it

I don't want to be bad but I can't think straight

I don't want to be bad -- you're not making it easy

I want you so much I'm ashamed of myself

I want you so much I'm ashamed of myself

I don't mean to blame you because I'm so neurotic

Am I allowed to talk of something so real

An emotional bulemic, I want to purge myself

I'm afraid to feel the way that I feel

The way you're standing right now I'm filled with evil

I can't tell you what's really in my heart

I want to tell you that I love you, but I don't even know you

I can't tell you I lust you so I keep it to myself