Wishlist For The Drowning

you can't feel this weight all eyes on me now

every glance is another slit in my wrist

its all accidents and splendor four pills

that you have never seen skin that shade of blue

before or felt breath that cold i guess

that it never touched you in quite the same way

it all falls down one by one it all adds up

i thought that you knew that living on the edge was all i

ever do.

it never touches soft enough and you would never let me

give up

no matter how much i wanted to and someday you will know

that all of my sleepless nights

and tear stained pillows were never meant for you to

understand

and even though it seems like i'm always falling apart

i'm still standing on these broken legs just hold on.

just hold on. i'm still living at all cost