Should Have Let Me Leave

i've got a body that i don't want to be living in

i've got devils flooding up to the neck

and i have forgotten how to swim

all of these people keep calling me up who i don't even know

i don't even know myself

it all started when i was a kid

i kept putting trust in my father and receiving nothing

relationships lasted no longer than limbs

still the same, nothing changed

this just keeps on happening

should have let me leave

should have let me leave this mess

(i can't stop. i can't stop lying)

can i ever come clean?

should have let me leave this mess

none of this was my fault

none of this was my fault

still i'm losing sleep