I Don't Like Who I Was Then

Tossed around like sea glass

And you rounded out my edges

I'll feel better when the headaches go away

I've got a scar across my forehead

Turning purple in the cold

From a night at Shore Memorial

I was sixteen and afraid

Turned away

And I'm working babyface

Out of Mid-South in the eighties

I kept a blade hidden in my wrist tape

I think I'm growing into someone you could trust

I want to shoulder the weight until my back breaks

I want to run till my lungs give up

If I could manage not to fuck this up

If I could manage not to fuck this up

I think enough is enough

Hidden in the tall grass

In the naked light of day

Put my past self in the ground

I've been dancing on the grave

I'm not the person that I was then

You're standing in the way

I was bitter, I was careless

I was nineteen and afraid

But you deserve more from me

I don't know why I would say those things

But you deserve more than me

And I'm trying every day

I think I'm growing into someone you could trust

I want to shoulder the weight until my back breaks

I want to run till my lungs give up

If I could manage not to fuck this up

If I could manage not to fuck this up

I think enough is enough

You left me walking in circles

You were a shot in the dark

You were the baby teeth I buried

You were the sounds of distant cars

You left me walking in circles

You were a shot in the dark

You were the banner that says "no one"

That I tattooed across my heart

You left me walking in circles

You were a shot in the dark

You scattered like ashes across every song that I write

You are the light pollution stars

I think I'm growing into someone you could trust

I want to shoulder the weight until my back breaks

I want to run till my lungs give up

If I could manage not to fuck this up

If I could manage not to fuck this up

Enough is enough