Remember To Forget

Here I stand unsteady

Dignity in hand

Trapped inside a vacuum

Hostage in wonderland

I try to run slipping & sliding

Stumbling blindly off the cliff

What if - adrift - I can't get back

Numb I can't understand what's been done

By the other hand

This is now it's not the same

The anguish calls to stake it's claim

Sharp in relief time creeps on by

I try to make my peace

With what is & what might be

Home in another time

Memories persist without rhyme

Sounds trigger thoughts trigger pain

Whispers of doubt still remain

Clinging to regret

I struggle to resist

Scars that won't forgive

Can't I remember to forget?

Paranoia building a wall

Naive misconceptions

Feeding a future I cannot recall

Chaos as I think & feel

Groping blind for the truths that I conceal

Allalone upon my throne

Intentions fail to lift the stone

Wear the badge of resentment proud

I try to make my peace

With what is & what might be

Home in another time

Safe & secure of some things

I could be assured

Walk the slippery slope of the past

I choose to dress up my burden

Call it salvation as it drags me down

I try to make my peace

With what is & what might be

Home in another time

Memories persist without rhyme

Sounds trigger thoughts trigger pain

Whispers of doubts still remain

Shackles rust as I release the past

Free from bitterness

Without looking back I can

Remember to forget