It Never Mattered

Why'd you have to go and leave me out in the cold

I was too young, so how could I know

You didn't give me a light when I tried to grow

And then you jetted out and took a piece of my soul

Sticks and stones may chip at your bones

Especially when they hit so close to home

But I cut all the losses, buried all the skeletons

Dropped all the grudges, I can be myself again

That's the past and I'm moving on fast

And I won't blame you for the cause of collapse

They say you've got to live to forgive and forget

Cause holding on to it is a bigger regret

All of the words they said

That debts been paid in full

All of the things they did

I can let it go, I can let it go

The hate, the hurt, the fear, the pride

It all just disappear when I conceed

It never mattered at all

It never mattered at all

It never mattered at all

None of the words they said

It never mattered at all

None of the things they did

It never mattered at all

I feel sick when I go over my resume

Both at who I am and things I did yesterday

Fantasizing I could take it back

But it's a wasted act, have to face the fact that

I've got to live with the pain I've caused

And walk amongst those who sustained to loss

Picking up the pieces of broken trust

When their hopes were crushed down to smoke and dust

I said I didn't know and played the role beautifully

Then I abandoned you when it suited me

It's a stain that I can't erase

And I'm ashamed but I can only ask for grace cause

All of the words they said

That debts been paid in full

All of the things they did

You can let it go, you can let it go

The hate, the hurt, the fear, the pride

It all just disappear when we conceed

It never mattered at all

It never mattered at all

It never mattered at all

It never mattered at all