My Last Act

Fill the basin with my hands

Your strong shoulders in my head

Soft soap splashing on the rim

I keep wishing i was him

Cobweb fluttering 12 ft up

Above the basin where i (?)

Soap and fingernails

Dirty imagined intimate details

I go to the garage where on the wall

1010 daddy long legs crawl

A crazy notion tracks through my mind

An electrical shudder shoots up and down my spine

I run to the kitchen grab a pot & lid

And i rush to the garage before i knew what i did

I was raking the gentle? spiders into that pot

Then i was sitting at the kitchen table feeling so cold and so hot

In a moment i move to get a cereal bowl

Then i'm back at the table and before i know

What exactly i had done, i pulled the legs off every one

(the little black buttons…?) in front of me it looked like a bowl of black eyed peas

? in the top, poured it into the cuisinart

I reached in the cupboard and i grabbed a lid

Of tequila and i pour that in, push the button and it starts to chop

( my heart can hardly contain my thumping heart?)

My last act on this earth will be to chug a lug a mixture and hope for the worst